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abbyvonnormalI've lost count, mainly because I never started counting. I guess March 10th sounds good, because that sounds like about when shit hit the fan in the US. The rest of this post is going to be really scattery, for that, I apologize, but it's in my head that way.
So, I heard that they're reopening Wuhan Province on April 8th. I can't wait to see what happens, I really think only good things can come from it. China has shown that with proper distancing and isolation this virus can be beaten, or at least appear to be beaten. I've always been an optimist, so I'm staying that way with high hopes and positive thoughts that this is a good sign of times to come for the rest of the world.
I had pneumonia a week before everything went crazy here. I'm normally a homebody, and I'm very grateful that I can stay at home because life lets me. From now on, when I say I had a doctor's appointment, I obviously had a video chat, just wanna clear that up. I had a therapist appt last week and she asked me if I was gonna be okay alone. I'm home alone because my dad is a merchant marine, he's out to sea a lot, like now, he's gone until August, probably longer if this virus isn't cleared by then. Like always, I answered her question honestly and said, "For now," and I felt a lump in my throat because it made me sad. Yeah, I have a dog and a cat, friends, I have those, too. But this question hurt. It made me miss my mom so much more, made me miss not having a life partner, someone to share this with, being 40 and where I'm at in life is not cool. I believe, as of just now, I've decided to make a difference in my life, I'm going to straighten my shit out and be the better person I've always wanted to be. Like Gandhi said, right? "Be the change you wish to see in the world." That's what I'm going to do. I'm going to make myself better. I will. I need to set daily attainable goals and believe in myself like I used to. I can ride my bike when the weather is nice. I can ride my dad's stationary bike when the weather isn't nice. I can read the shit ton of books I've accumulated over the last forever years. I can learn to be me.
x Em
Edit: April 3, not stopping, but after the Scarlet Whore Beast leaves, I'm on it.
So, I heard that they're reopening Wuhan Province on April 8th. I can't wait to see what happens, I really think only good things can come from it. China has shown that with proper distancing and isolation this virus can be beaten, or at least appear to be beaten. I've always been an optimist, so I'm staying that way with high hopes and positive thoughts that this is a good sign of times to come for the rest of the world.
I had pneumonia a week before everything went crazy here. I'm normally a homebody, and I'm very grateful that I can stay at home because life lets me. From now on, when I say I had a doctor's appointment, I obviously had a video chat, just wanna clear that up. I had a therapist appt last week and she asked me if I was gonna be okay alone. I'm home alone because my dad is a merchant marine, he's out to sea a lot, like now, he's gone until August, probably longer if this virus isn't cleared by then. Like always, I answered her question honestly and said, "For now," and I felt a lump in my throat because it made me sad. Yeah, I have a dog and a cat, friends, I have those, too. But this question hurt. It made me miss my mom so much more, made me miss not having a life partner, someone to share this with, being 40 and where I'm at in life is not cool. I believe, as of just now, I've decided to make a difference in my life, I'm going to straighten my shit out and be the better person I've always wanted to be. Like Gandhi said, right? "Be the change you wish to see in the world." That's what I'm going to do. I'm going to make myself better. I will. I need to set daily attainable goals and believe in myself like I used to. I can ride my bike when the weather is nice. I can ride my dad's stationary bike when the weather isn't nice. I can read the shit ton of books I've accumulated over the last forever years. I can learn to be me.
x Em
Edit: April 3, not stopping, but after the Scarlet Whore Beast leaves, I'm on it.
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